Scared

My heart pounding fast and unsteady.I ask myself,why are you so afraid?! Actually I was weak.I feel so frustrated till I really don't know what to do.Sometimes I get so mad,I just want to take a knife and stab him! He is just like a ghost haunting for me.Every single day.Effecting my everyday life.Why did he came back to haunt me?!Is anyone there to save me?!Everything was over.None of you can be trusted!None of you.Everyday..I fear.I don't know what I fear actually.I think..the only thing i am afraid to lose,is that 'you'.Hm..I regret of everything i've did before.All the tolerating somehow seems bullshit.What am I saying?!I hate this.All of this.If there really is nothing is going to stop this.I think,I only will have one choice left.When that time comes.Everything is for sure to be gone.GOne once and for all.