Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Scared
My heart pounding fast and unsteady.I ask myself,why are you so afraid?! Actually I was weak.I feel so frustrated till I really don't know what to do.Sometimes I get so mad,I just want to take a knife and stab him! He is just like a ghost haunting for me.Every single day.Effecting my everyday life.Why did he came back to haunt me?!Is anyone there to save me?!Everything was over.None of you can be trusted!None of you.Everyday..I fear.I don't know what I fear actually.I think..the only thing i am afraid to lose,is that 'you'.Hm..I regret of everything i've did before.All the tolerating somehow seems bullshit.What am I saying?!I hate this.All of this.If there really is nothing is going to stop this.I think,I only will have one choice left.When that time comes.Everything is for sure to be gone.GOne once and for all.
Friday, September 2, 2011
Update for so long
Hello readers! ( if I even have any)
Such a long time no updating.Really have no mood to write for this pass few weeks or months.Don't even remember.Many things changed!Life is getting so miserable.Bored.It was always about money money money.I am getting fatter,uglier and tired.Lazy like crazy.Still thinking whether I wanna study or not.My mum keep asking me the same old question everyday.STudy study study.How about my family work?!Will my dad even let me.Seriously.I really have no idea.The feel some how just flew away.I don't see any support.Isit my fault for making people not caring about me anymore?!Or isit their problem?!
Why will I become like this you ask?!
Because I feel life became really very not fair.Not even a single bit.I don't have that heart to do something for anyone,no heart to do anything for myself too.I want people to care for me!MORE! then me always tolerating with others.What I want?!Anyone cared or asked?!Perhaps no.Because everyone only cares about what they want instead of others.Then what's the point of me being different?!Its very tired.Extreme TIRED.The worst part is.People don't even know you did something for them,instead they say that you're just a SO hai.Life...Not fair.AT alll!
Such a long time no updating.Really have no mood to write for this pass few weeks or months.Don't even remember.Many things changed!Life is getting so miserable.Bored.It was always about money money money.I am getting fatter,uglier and tired.Lazy like crazy.Still thinking whether I wanna study or not.My mum keep asking me the same old question everyday.STudy study study.How about my family work?!Will my dad even let me.Seriously.I really have no idea.The feel some how just flew away.I don't see any support.Isit my fault for making people not caring about me anymore?!Or isit their problem?!
Why will I become like this you ask?!
Because I feel life became really very not fair.Not even a single bit.I don't have that heart to do something for anyone,no heart to do anything for myself too.I want people to care for me!MORE! then me always tolerating with others.What I want?!Anyone cared or asked?!Perhaps no.Because everyone only cares about what they want instead of others.Then what's the point of me being different?!Its very tired.Extreme TIRED.The worst part is.People don't even know you did something for them,instead they say that you're just a SO hai.Life...Not fair.AT alll!
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