Have been awhile

Hello people..If i got any.Haha..So many things I want to do in my life.I am getting more aggressive in what I want in my life now.I don't know why,and I can't explain it out in words.Maybe someone that inspired me to be who I want to be.I've met people,who let me see more in this world.How hard they became their dream.And I want that feeling.I want my dream!I haven't yet had the confidence to do so.Still stuck here.So you are seeing me writing my blog now.I want to sing.I want to write a song.I want to record it.I want to perform.I want to go outside this world.I want to leave.I want to be loved.I want alot.I know if I take the first step,many people will get hurt  by me,But Then..I know if i start my game,I can not stop.I have to do it until I reach where I am.

Scared

My heart pounding fast and unsteady.I ask myself,why are you so afraid?! Actually I was weak.I feel so frustrated till I really don't know what to do.Sometimes I get so mad,I just want to take a knife and stab him! He is just like a ghost haunting for me.Every single day.Effecting my everyday life.Why did he came back to haunt me?!Is anyone there to save me?!Everything was over.None of you can be trusted!None of you.Everyday..I fear.I don't know what I fear actually.I think..the only thing i am afraid to lose,is that 'you'.Hm..I regret of everything i've did before.All the tolerating somehow seems bullshit.What am I saying?!I hate this.All of this.If there really is nothing is going to stop this.I think,I only will have one choice left.When that time comes.Everything is for sure to be gone.GOne once and for all.

Update for so long

Hello readers! ( if I even have any)


Such a long time no updating.Really have no mood to write for this pass few weeks or months.Don't even remember.Many things changed!Life is getting so miserable.Bored.It was always about money money money.I am getting fatter,uglier and tired.Lazy like crazy.Still thinking whether I wanna study or not.My mum keep asking me the same old question everyday.STudy study study.How about  my family work?!Will my dad even let me.Seriously.I really have no idea.The feel some how just flew away.I don't see any support.Isit my fault for making people not caring about me anymore?!Or isit their problem?!

Why will I become like this you ask?!

Because I feel life became really very not fair.Not even a single bit.I don't have that heart to do something for anyone,no heart to do anything for myself too.I want people to care for me!MORE! then me always tolerating with others.What I want?!Anyone cared or asked?!Perhaps no.Because everyone only cares about what they want instead of others.Then what's the point of me being different?!Its very tired.Extreme TIRED.The worst part is.People don't even know you did something for them,instead they say that you're just a SO hai.Life...Not fair.AT alll!

My confession

8th of June 2011

Haven't been writing for a very long time.So today I decided to write.Lately,i mean in this few months time,many shit happened.As we all know,i broke up with my ex,and got together with ex(when I was form2).Drama drama drama again.Can I take a rest?!Every year,there must be atleast one thing for me to Farn about.Yea yea yea~!Wong Jyee is a playgirl.You all not sien one meh?!7years u people have been talking bad about me,even if u know me,don't know me.What FUCK!Gosh..Skip this.

Continuously,
As we all know,I am working for my family now.I admit I will be late for work,but most of the time,I mean seriously most of the time,I will be the first one who reaches to the offices first.Nevermind!My fault.Doing quotations and typing invoices slow.Excuse me,still learning in progress~!Gosh.I can tolerate with my sis,cause she don't treat me like a dog when she is calling me to do something but for my 3rd brother.Too much!I mean seriously TOO MUCH!Why the fuck he can not talk nicely.U see,one day,he tell me:'' Jyee,if u don't understand anything,or u don't know anything u can always call me,I am GLAD to tell u n explain to u.''
One day,I asked him:"Brother,what should I write on the empty line?Install & supply or repaint or what?!''He said:"Jyee,all these things u can not always ask one,u should go check back the files,refer!All these things u must know,u can not always wait for me to tell u what to write!understand or not?!Please Jyee,focus on your work more."In my heart I was thinking:WTF?N u said u r glad to tell n explain to me,but then?!Gosh!I do admin,typing,accounts,even toilet paper no more i have to put,make tea for them.Yes,Its simple job,but u can also tell me nicely right?!And.Guess what,i get 700 per month for my salary.The kakak that washes toilet in ou,gets Rm2000.00 per month!OMGEEE~!Haih~Fed up~!Always saying me slow slow slow.Then say i got nothing to do.i do finish d,then do what!?STupid!TIRED!!

Things I am addictive with

Pizza Milano Coffee

The Tekken6 Token

Close up

The first thing I am like so addictive with,that i can not let go is of cause my beloved one,The fatty pig in my heart.Just so got addicted to him since 2years back.He is cute!Moving on...The pizza Milano Coffee!I think it is greater then starbucks or even coffee bean.Its so damn shit ons!Haha...That taste that makes me want to drink it everyday(I know its bad for me).Not to mention Tekken6.Bleedy hell I can not get over it.Like some nerd playing Dota like nuts.I suck in Tekken but everytime when I go ou,or hangs in Tc i just like so Got to play maybe one or two rounds.Haha..I'm a Emilie De Rochefort lover,also known as Lili.Haha...

Bubu

Fluffy

Recently,I got this new thing.Thanks to Wao wongie..and I am currently addicted to Teddy bears!I have one at home and one that stays in my car.Bubu and Fluffy.They are so cuddly.Cute!Thank you wao wongiee.

Dad is so cute

Dad bought me this pouch that is the same like his.So i have like this couple pouch with daddy.isn't that cute?!Haha

Valentines Day

13th of Feb 2011

After a morning lovey dovey time with my wao wongiee,we head back to pj in the evening.Reynard came over to my house to pick us up.We went to ou to get something for my gf then went to pick her up.Had dinner at one world hotel.Full till can not move.Then we head to Pd.It was kinda sudden,but yeah,We went pd.Spend a few hours in Avillion.It was nice.With the beach and the pool,too bad it was already late night.

Happy birthday Cai ling

6th of February 2011

Having steamboat in my house and celebrating my princess nieces bday.She is soooooo cute!

2nd day of CNY

4th of Feb 2011

 selalu makan je

 guess who?!

 smoke again..

 its cny!

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 hehe...lou sang!

We went to our aunties place to pray for our ancestors and visit them.Kinda fun.Atleast we get to know what our zodiac says this year.